Wow, it’s been a while since I’ve posted! I’ve been up in the mountains, tucked away, planning and thinking. And there is so much going on that I will again begin to share with you all. However, this is a reflective post on turning the big 3-0 a.k.a: dirty 30.
Big sigh…of relief! I saw my reflection the other day and truly saw myself as a woman: strong, beautiful, and willful. The days of feeling unsure of who I was or where I was going are gone. I’ve accepted that everyday I’m learning more about myself, and the future is widely unknown. I no longer think in terms of how outside influences effect me only, but how my choices reverberate in a multitude of ways. My satisfaction does not come from the approval of others but out of my own happiness that is being true and real with myself.
It seemed as I drew farther away from my early 20’s, I feared the superficial ideas of what that meant: losing my youth, effects of aging, ‘taking life seriously,’ etc. These ideas have transformed into knowing that my spirit will always be youthful; health, happiness, and authenticity is beauty; and life is part doing and part trusting.
These are the positive things you are not told enough. When you’re growing up, you’re growing. And that is a beautiful thing.
In a couple of weeks I’m embarking on a Central/South America trip. I am so excited to delve into the journey ahead. With these parts of myself that have grown and developed, I hope I can share with you the ever evolving transformation.